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  4 A's! Because why not!
  So it seems like my ex has officially officially moved on (I said it twice because she obviously has moved on like months ago, but now its official^2). I'm happy for her, I really am.

  One of the reason why she wants to break it off was I believe "It isn't what she wanted right now". I'm still not sure what that really means but I'm going to assume that there doesn't seem to be a proper closing date on our long distance relationship. I also remembered when I told her "give me 5 years" and she kinda started bawling. Damn I was dumb.

  But yeah, it seems like now she found a new love, and it doesn't seem to be a long distance one (which is good). Anyway, upon seeing the update it obviously triggered some reflection inside me. It is no surprised that due to the long distance, and especially the lack of a closing date, our relationship will not work out. I'm sure she was extremely anxious and stressed out about it. And I guess, priorities changes. We got together in the middle of our university years, but as our relationship approaches our graduation, the prospect of job searching is then there. I am aware of her scenario, in which her degree ensures her a job locally, which means she probably shouldn't leave the country, as her degree is more geographically specific. Mine, however, was not. Mine is one of those more generic degree like Business, Engineering, etc. It's not like law (which is also geographically specific) or those, so the onus is up to me to relocate if we were to ever be together.

  I have no real complain about it, as I do love the country where she's at, and have no problem from my side on relocating. The problem comes from the other side though. A new country means new immigration steps, new culture, and most importantly, new language. It is extremely risky for me to simply move there right after my graduation, the plan is to get some experience here in Canada first, then decide later. That's gonna take a damn long time though.

  Anyway, going back, like I said: priorities changed. As we're both entering the workforce, I guess she wanted a more stable relationship; one that isn't marred by the North Atlantic Ocean. Not just that, as our graduation approaches, which means our final finals approaches, which means we both got really busy with school work as we do not want to mess it up, and thus our relationship got even more strained. Communication was lacking, we rarely talk, and or have nothing to talk about. It was absolutely horrible. Could it be remedied? Not sure. Looking bad, I was making lots of mistakes in the relationship too, so maybe for the better. I am aware that around the end of our relationship, I made a bunch load of mistakes, saying lots of things that I shouldn't have said, my oh my I was really an idiot >.<

  At the end, things broke down, stuff happens. I did not take it well. Especially it happened when I was literally at my lowest, when relatives were passing away, I was in the midst of my exams, and my leg was injured and I couldn't even stand at the time. Yeah it sucks.

  I don't know for sure, but I was told that she came out of it a better person. Stronger, more confident, and what not. I guess my chapter have came to an end, and its time for a new one.

  If somehow you're reading this, Giantess, you are an amazing person, and those past years leave me with no regrets (except not meeting Signe, and a few others though, but those are lost opportunities now). My time has been long gone; but I am truly happy for you. I wish you all the best with your new love. Hej då!