Hoooahhhh

  I realised something during the past few months. My physical capabilities is strongly tied to my mental health. I guess I stay sane by doing things. Once my ability to do things is taken away from me, I kind of spiral into this horrible mood. Last week, I was sick. My throat was horrible, my nose is always leaking, my eyes are always droopy and my body feels weak in general. I can't do much, and it was horrible. This week, after cutting my thumb, I can't grab things with my left hand anymore (for now at least). Thankfully, lots of my academic activities like studying and doing my assignments can be done without really exercising my left thumb, so academic wise, I am on top of it. In fact, I am so on top of my academic because I can't do pretty much anything else.

  I can't chop vegetables, which means I can't cook. I can't go to the gym either, can't lift weights. Not just that, I missed my weekly bake-a-new-baking-thing last weekend. The good news is that my thumb stopped bleeding, but it still hurts even when something were to casually rub it. 

  The other thing I am stressed about too, is, you guessed it, my future career. Now that everyone knows that this is my last semester, I am constantly asked: "So what's next?" And I always give this nervous laugh, with a "I don't know." I can't ask people, because no one I know has friends who graduated from the field of mathematics. Every other stats person I know is well, like me, still studying. Asking professors doesn't help, because they always just go with "go get a masters in stats next". Career advisors just refers me to the field of everything else but stats, because everyone needs stats am I right? Sigh, this job thing is really stressing me out.

  I've been attending as many soft skills seminar as I can. Just yesterday, I attended this "RBar". What's RBar? R-Bar is a weekly scientific programming study group where we have a beer and tackle R issues in a cooperative group setting (taken from their twitter bio). I've always had my data handed to me in a silver platter for class. Yesterday's session basically showed us how to import data from more common data software, like Excel. I've taken a course where we're given data, and we're supposed to analyze it and then write a report about it. That course taught me that 20% of my time is used cleaning the data, 10% analyzing, and 70% writing the report. That course is the one course where the professor purposely gave us some really messy data, and it was our job to tidy it up, so that we could analyze it. So, yesterday's RBar was basically that too. Their solution is so much more neater though. They made so many directories so that it wouldn't be a total mess to navigate. Looking back at my directory for that report.... hehehe..... I wonder how did I even know what file is what that time...

  Been really busy with all these lately, rarely had time to do my own stuff now. I've basically replaced watching shows with reading, because with reading I know I could stop anytime, and spare time now is too tight. Which reminds me, I gotta do laundry.

Figure 47.1: Why does it feel like Duolingo is preparing me
for some Swedish heartbreaks?

Figure 47.2: What kind of data are they collecting??
TL: Why doesn't he kiss me?